*Update - I started the blog!**
I would love to start a blog, but they are spendy. God has given me a very real-life experience that may help someone. Until then, I am going to post some things that are close to my heart. So, welcome to Loose Particles and Squiggly Lines #1! (I will explain that name soon.)
The burden of feeling like a nuisance when you are chronically ill or care for someone who is is very real. Eventually, you begin to question how much is too much to share? How many times is too many to ask for prayer? How many times can you reach out to someone before it becomes one too many? These are all real thoughts and concerns. Many times people suffer alone because of things said or done to them when they were in need. When people say they want to know and then ignore you, you stop reaching out. You also know that you are not the only one dealing with hard things. How can you always be "selfish" and ask for prayer and support while others are suffering worse? You also know people are busy with their own lives and you respect that. I write these things because I never want anyone to feel alone or like a burden when facing hard things.
What does this process look like? Last night, my husband had some very sharp pains in his chest. It was like watching a movie. He grabbed his chest and doubled over a bit. My anxiety had anxiety. The turmoil of whether you make someone go to the ER or let them make that decision was strong. It was scary and nerve-wracking. I started to ask for prayer in a group, but there were far more important things others needed. We also don't want to overburden people because the our life is A LOT! I started to reach out to specific people, but also know how busy they are right now. Then I started to send a message for a prayer list, but again, felt like we are ALWAYS asking. We never want to appear like it's for attention. Finally, I was going to post social media, but stopped due to all the above reasons. Was it anyone's fault last night? ABSOLUTELY NOT! However, the feelings did come because of others. This was an example, but many feel this way.
What's the answer? I can only give my opinion of what I have learned along the way. LET PEOPLE KNOW YOU ARE THERE! Many times people don't offer support because they don't know what to say. You don't have to say anything. Acknowledging what someone is dealing with and letting them know you are there is vital. Letting them know you are praying is vital. Not giving up on them is vital. As much as I feel like disappearing into my hermitness, I see how much we need each other. We weren't made to do this life alone, especially the hard stuff. I am certainly nowhere near perfect at supporting others, but I pray and strive to be better.
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